I am a Thai
girl who would like to move to Japan.
I have been living
in Thailand since I was born. I started having the idea to move to Japan when I
was 15 years old (now I am 24 years old).
I could remember
that Japanese entertainment started being popular in Thailand when I was 10
years old. I could see a lot of Japanese actors, singers, dramas on television.
I used to be crazy for a Japanese singer named “Makoto” when I went to primary
school but at that time I didn’t feel like I wanted to move to Japan yet
because I was just a fan of Japanese singers and I was too young to think about
moving out anyway.
When I was
15 years old, Korean entertainment started being popular in Thailand instead of
Japan. I started being crazy of Korean singers and dramas as well. However, I
never felt I wanted to move to Korea.
So the
entertainment didn’t affect me to move out.
When I was
15 years old, I encountered a bad situation. That situation changed my
personality to become an unhappy girl. A girl who had a lot of tension. I met disappointment
at the first time of my life. This disappointment made me not want to stay in
the real life. I did not want to even go out of my home to see the sky. I was stuck
in my dream that it would never happen and hated my real life.
I tried to
look for something to replace my impossible dream. I didn’t know why Japan
appeared in my mind. I was searching and learning about spending life in Japan
via any websites and finally I fell in love with Japan. I imagined if I could
move to Japan to study, it would be great and I could also start my new life in
Japan. However, I come from a middle class family. My parents were not rich
enough to assist my new dream to come true and I must accept it.
My real life
must go on.
When I was a
high school student, I asked my mom for money to study Japanese in Bangkok but
my mom did not agree. She said it was a waste of time, I should improve my
English first. So, I had to collect money by myself. While I was counting my
money from piggy bank, my mom found I really
intended to study Japanese so my mom gave me her money to take a Japanese
course.
I started my
first course when I finished high school. The first class let me know that
Japanese was a hard language but I did not give up and tried harder until
studying Japanese was my favorite.
When I
started university life, I had to stop taking Japanese courses because Thai
freshmen had to attend activities of university and some activities were held
on weekends.
I studied in
law school because I thought I could have a good future life after I graduated
but I did not feel so happy to study. It seemed it was not a thing I like.
I came back
to take Japanese courses when I was a fourth year student. At that time, I was
considering what to do with my life after graduating. I was still confused of
my life and feeling bored of many bad situations in Thailand, especially about politics.
I started
thinking about changing my life. I wanted to do something new and leave the
boring place.
However,
after I graduated, I only started working for a law firm in Bangkok because I
did not have any choice except looking for a job. While I was being an
employee, I kept studying Japanese. I still feel happy every time I do anything
about Japan and I still feel interested every time I know a new thing about
Japan. I saved money from my salary to travel in Japan for the first time.
I traveled
to Japan alone after I decided to leave my job after I had worked there for 1
year and 3 months to work as freelancer.
While I was
travelling in Japan, my mind told me that this is the thing I really would like
to do. I would like to stay here. I did not want to come back to Thailand to
continue my boring life. I would like to start my new life here. I shed a lot
of tears on the last day of my Japan trip because I did not want to depart yet
but I had no choice.
Now I am
still living in Thailand. I am trying to do many things so I can go back to
Japan and I insist that I will stay there legally so escaping into the city is
not in my mind. I would like to start from taking a Japanese class for at least
1 year and work part-time while studying. Then, study master degree or look for
a permanent job if I can. However, I accept that gathering enough money to stay
there is not easy but I will try as hard as I can.
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